Nurture Your Authentic Self

I started this blog website in February of 2021. 

I did much research on how to buy my own website, and after I obtained this URL, I must’ve spent a month just designing it. After I designed it to the best of my novice abilities, I thought about content, and as I thought, months flew by. Before I knew it, a whole year had passed and my hosting had expired, and I hadn’t posted a single thing for the public eye. 

After that failure to launch, I decided I would try things differently moving forward. I worked hard on creating a backlog of content, so I could stay consistent with posting, and I brainstormed a theme to follow, so my blog would have symmetry to it. And even as my ideas flowed, I hadn’t decided to launch this blog until now, May 14, 2024, over three years after my first attempt. 

It took me a long time to realize that I wasn’t hindered by all the things I said I was. I tried blaming it on being too busy or burnt out, but the truth was that I was truly afraid to launch this blog. Publishing my writing is like letting the world into my soul. I am my most authentic and vulnerable self through my work, and I was afraid that people wouldn’t like me or that people would be cruel as people can be to those who open themselves to the world of media. And more than both of those excuses, I was afraid to fail. I stayed paralyzed by fear, until little by little, I found courage to keep trying. To allow myself to thrive in my destiny, I needed to work on the parts of myself that were fearful.